I want you to deposit me

In the bank of mediocrity

Like a dirty bill you’ll never see again

I want you to erase me

Wipe the shavings 

And replace me

With something so distracting

I forget all that I’m lacking

I want you to pretend to

Care the way that I do.

Sarah Rayne Russell

Such a NEED to ventilate..

To punch back and retaliate,

To repress and evaporate,

Memories I have grown to hate.

Is it in me to be the one,

To overpower and overcome,

All the webs Ive weaved and spun.

And let your feet tread upon.

How fucking stupid could I be,

To let you fold and label me. 

Sarah Rayne Russell

Corrupt me..
Degrade Me then object me..
Cover my mouth and fuck me.
Take me to your hell.
Demean me..
Pretend that you dont see me
Damn you are so greedy…
I’m still under your spell.
Reject me..
Then choose to neglect me
Leave me here reflecting
On all the pain you cause.
Hurt me
With your words of hate…
Desert me..
Make me wait purposely…
I’m still alone when your here.
Leave me
Spit out the lies…
Deceive me.
I wont be played believe me…
Its time to cut the ties.
There’s nothing like goodbyes.

Sarah Rayne Russell